Things We Have in Common

Things We Have in Common

big heartWe breathe.

We need to eat to live.

We love.

We try our best to do the right thing.

We care about our families.

We care about strangers.

And there’s so much more that I’m missing, right? What else do we humans have in common? As the United States seems to rage with hate-fire, I need to remind myself this is all propaganda, garbage that is leading people to become protectionist because the sky seems to be falling.

Well, the sky is still in place. And right now outside my Seattle window, the sky is actually clear and blue.

A picture of my brother and me a long long time ago

We’re going to be okay. And also know that I love you. I care about you. And I want you to make strides towards that dream you have that brings you joy.

Add onto my list. What do you feel we all have in common?




Two Truths and A Lie

Two Truths and A Lie

You know the game, right? I tell you three things and you decide which are the truths and which one’s the lie. Well, today I’m just giving it to you straight. 🙂

Truth #1

img_0702Last week I drove past the Kirkland Cemetery – the one across from Lake Washington High School for all my neighbors  – and I spotted a shadow figure standing by a grave. When I turned the corner to get a better look, it stooped over and hid. This happened at 2:00pm in bright daylight.

Truth #2

img_6779On our recent trip to Japan, I was attacked by a spirit.When I woke up from a violent nightmare I could still feel hands around my throat choking off my air. I went into a full panic attack, bawled and raced to my daughters’ room to make sure they were okay. After about an hour, my heartbeat settled back to a normal pace and I was able to fall asleep again. Here’s the link to the hotel if you’re curious. Thankfully we only stayed there two nights at the end of our trip around the country. And yes, I’d stay there again in a heartbeat.

And Now the Lie (a short story I’d like to share with you)

The Burning Man


I startle awake, sit up too fast and smack my head on the upper bunk. Wood smoke claws at my throat and chest, and the skin on my legs sizzles from hot flames. I yank back the blankets to make sure I’m okay. Two legs, flannel pajamas. Everything’s normal. It was just a dream, just a dream, just a stupid dream, I think, as my eyes adjust to the dark and my room takes shape. Posters on the wall. Dirty clothes across the floor. Stacks of comics on the nightstand. My cellphone reads, “3:00am,” the witching hour.

The image of the burning man flashes through my head and my gut twists. Useless, I watched as his hair turned to ash and his skin melted like wax. As I stood there, too late to save him again, he was eaten by angry orange flames. Too late again.

I wipe away a mix of sweat and tears from my cheeks with the palms of my hands and yank them away fast. The skin across my hands sears as though I’ve been stung by a thousand bees. I hold them beneath the weak light of my phone screen and find tiny half-moons carved into my palms. Blood, too. Oh, God. Did I cut myself with my own fingernails?

I tried to keep the man from walking into the fire. I grabbed his arm as hard as I could and yanked backwards, but his shirt fell apart. I was left holding onto bits of burned overalls. As his house throbbed with flames, he stepped closer and closer to the heat and I screamed, “Move away! Get away from there! Please!” Then the glass windows of the little shack exploded. Shards flew at us, but he didn’t seem to care. In a strange, scratchy voice he said, “Stay with me, Sarah. It’ll be nice. I don’t wanna be alone no more. Please,” he begged.

An icy chill runs down my spine. I wrap my arms around my knees and hug myself. How did he know my name? Why did I listen to him and step closer to the fire? Why couldn’t I save him? I jab my fingers into my eyes to stop a stream of tears. Get ahold of yourself, Sarah. “You’re just a dream. You’re not real!” I shout into the dark corners of my room.

My cat answers back with a throaty growl. Romeo, my well fed Maine coon sits beneath the record player, his eyes glow like a jack-o-lantern. His gaze flits back and forth as he seems to watch something behind me. I slip out of bed and cross the room. All I find are shadows and little stars, plastic stars I taped to the ceiling when I was a little kid. They glow when the room is pitch dark, which used to make me feel safe at night. Not anymore, though.

“Romeo, come here, boy.” My voice comes out sounding like someone else’s, deep and coarse. I clear my throat, “Come on, sweetie.” I stretch out a hand and scoop him up, desperate to feel his warm furry body in my arms. The smoke from the dream tickles my throat and I cough, double over and hack until the taste of irony blood floods my mouth. Romeo hisses and vaults off my lap, then skitters out the door. I follow him down the hall.

“Blat! Blat! Blat! Blat! Blat!”

The smoke alarm erupts right outside my parents’ room.  “Please! Not again.” I stand on tippy toes and try to push the button that quiets the thing, but it’s too high.

The door to Mom’s room slams open. “Sarah! It’s three in the morning! What did I say about candles?” She waves her hands beneath the smoke alarm, but it continues to screech, almost as loudly as her. “No candles in your room! How many times do I have to tell you?”

I blink back tears. “I didn’t light any, Mom. I swear.”  I know she doesn’t believe me. She didn’t last night, either. Or the nights before that.

Mom grabs a chair and sets it beneath the alarm. She climbs up and pushes the red button whish shushes the awful noise. She climbs down and pushes past me to my room. She reaches my nightstand and pokes a finger into the top of the apple-scented candle there. I know for a fact it’s cold, the wax still solid and smooth. She scowls at me sideways, her forehead wrinkles with frustration. “Why do you smell like smoke then, Sarah?” She reaches out and grabs a handful of my hair and sniffs, then shakes her head. “Smells like smoke. Five nights in a row you’ve left a candle burning and set off that goddamn alarm. One of these times you’re going to set this house on fire and kill us all!”

“But I didn’t. Look,” I squeak.

I trail behind her down the hall and wipe my eyes with my shirtsleeve. She’s right. I reek of smoke, smoke and something sour like onions. Gross. She turns to me, “We will talk about this in the morning,” and slams the door to her room shut

I lock the bathroom door behind me and switch on the lights. I turn on the cold water and cup my hands in the stream. I gulp one handful of water after another, and wash away the taste of blood from my mouth. I close the drain and watch the sink fill. I unfold a washcloth and scrub my face until my skin tingles. I wring the cloth and tea-colored water rinses off. I wash my face again, rubbing even harder this time and using more soap. I squeeze the cloth and the water rolls off milky white. Thank goodness.

I look into the mirror and notice pink blotches across my cheeks and down my neck. As I stare, my reflection shudders and blurs. Thinking it’s a trick of the light, I bring my face closer to the mirror. To my horror, I watch as my eyes sink into my head, turning into dark caves. I grab at the skin around my mouth and it wrinkles under my fingertips. White whiskers erupt across my chin and jawline. I clutch my ponytail in my hand and it falls off. I throw the wad of blonde into the sink and white puffs, like cotton wisps grow across my scalp. I choke down a scream. The skin on my face and neck sags into folds and falls down down down onto the front of my shirt. A whimper slips from my lips and I slump onto the toilet.

I don’t know how, but I’ve become him, the burning man. This can’t be real. I pinch the inside of my arm to feel something real, something that makes sense. I pinch even harder until the burst hot pain pushes away what can’t be real. Nightmares aren’t real. I grit my teeth and stand, my legs shaky beneath me. I peek into the mirror and see me, just me, staring back.

My hands tremble as I turn off the faucet. I plunge my face into the cold water, holding my breath until my skin prickles and my lungs scream for air. The water feels magical somehow, purifying. A burning sensation explodes across my chest and I suck in a mix of air and water, stand up and cough out junk from deep inside my lungs. I spit out a mass of yellowish-brown junk, open the drain and wash the leftovers of the nightmare away. I want to be done with the burning man.

Worn out, I return to my bed and burrow under the blankets. I start typing a text to Matt and then remember, we broke up. I can’t text him. I blink back tears and stare at his picture. My fingers tingle. I type, “I miss you,” then hit delete.

As I struggle to fall asleep, I can’t hush the pity party going on inside my head. I need Matt. I’m scared and I can’t deal with this alone. The promises the burning man made replay in my mind. “You’ve never felt a peace like this, Sarah. Never felt so warm and loved in all your life.” I pull the comforter up to my chin. “Please, Sarah. I don’t want to be alone no more. Please. Matty can come to. I can fix all that.” My guts turn to jelly, sick with this deathly combination of longing and fear. I can’t dream about him again. I can’t stand aside helpless and watch him die. I don’t want to dream. Please, God. No more dreams.


The alarm on my phone startles me awake. The clock reads, “6:45am.” Last night’s events feel far away, but final exams are in forty-five minutes. I hurry into clothes and pull my hair back into a messy bun, dab lip gloss on my mouth and blot out acne with a stick of pink. I race down the stairs. Thankfully, no one’s home to notice that I’m late. My mom and sister have already left for school and Dad’s on a business trip. Then I notice Romeo, who watches me from a barstool, his ears lie flat and his tail flicks back and forth, back and forth.

“Don’t be so judgmental!” I tip the barstool he rests on ever so slightly and he slides to the ground. “You don’t belong up there. You’re not a real boy.” He growls at me and slinks out of the kitchen. He hates being reminded that he’s not human. I laugh and then cough. The taste of wood smoke fills my mouth. I cough again and reach inside the fridge for a can of soda. Power breakfast. I hurry from the house, slamming the front door shut behind me.

It’s a small miracle that I arrive at school with five minutes to spare. The halls bustle with too much happy activity for my taste. People gab, cram for tests, and two lockers down from mine a couple of freshmen are making out way too intensely. Ugh. I pull my locker open and dump my backpack inside, trying to ignore the pictures taped in there of Matt and me. Homecoming. Class trip. Prom. I rub the place beneath my ribs that suddenly hurts. I miss you, Matt, I think. I slam the metal door shut too hard, “BAM!” The smooching couple jolts apart. I smirk and then head to final number one. Calculus.

I take a seat and even though I try not to, check Matt’s desk. He’s not here. As the teacher hands out the tests, I worry about Matt. He must be sick. He’d never miss a test. She begins her instructions and a noisy fire alarm screams over her voice. Ears ringing, I startle to my feet and follow the others to the exit. The teacher screams, “Leave everything behind!”

In minutes, students gather in clumps at the far end of the parking lot. Bubbling with conversations, everyone seems thrilled to have had the first test of the day interrupted. Two fire trucks pull up to the school and soon firefighters rush inside. As I stand with the other kids in the parking lot, I check my phone. No texts. No new likes for the photo I posted of Romeo. Nothing. Fifteen minutes later, we hear the all-clear signal. I walk inside school and feel a hand on my shoulder. I turn my head and see Principal Swank.

“Sarah, I need a word with you.”

As I follow Principal Swank into her office, my mind races. What did I do wrong? I haven’t skipped any classes. And I wasn’t late today. Did I accidently park in the teachers’ lot? I don’t think so.

We turn into her office. Seated in a line are the vice principal and my advisor. My mouth dries up. “Please, have a seat.” She points to the only empty chair in the cramped space.

“Do you know anything about the fire alarm going off, Sarah?”

I shake my head. “I was just starting my Calculus test.”

“Well, unlike most times, today’s alarm was due to an actual fire.” I pick at my fingernails, still trying to figure out why she’s called me in to tell me this. “Thankfully it was small and easy to contain, but it could have done serious damage. We were very very lucky.” Principal Swank taps her pen on her desk blotter.  She would be pretty if she smiled, I decide. “Is there anything you want to tell us about the fire, Sarah?”

I decide I don’t like the way she says my name. It comes out sounding like, Say-rah! As though it is part of some corny half-time cheer. She stares at me, her lips pursed and I realize I’m smiling. I hide my mouth behind my hand and try to remember what she asked me. Oh, about the fire.

“Of course not. I was in a test. How can I set off an alarm from math class?” She comes around her desk and stands right in front of me, leaning against her desk. She chews the side of her mouth and I follow her gaze down to my legs that bounce up and down. I hadn’t even realized I was doing it. I put my hands on my lap to keep myself still. Sweat breaks out on the back of my neck.

“Well, it started in your locker.” She purses her lips and glares at me. “Are you still sure you know nothing about it?”

“Yeah.” I feel my legs jiggle again and stop them with my hands. I’m a portrait of guilt. “I don’t know anything about it.” My voice sounds whiny.

“Hmm.” She clicks her pen, then sets it down on her perfectly organized desk. “Does anyone else know your locker combination?” she asks.

“No. Well, yeah. Matt. But he would never mess with it. We’re…” there is no way I’m crying in front of these people, I blink back tears, “…broken up. He wouldn’t be caught dead by my locker, not anymore.”

Principal Swank rises to her feet and hands me a small patch of fabric. “Sarah, I need the truth from you, understand? Have you ever seen this?”

It is a small oval of fabric, gray and charred. I trace a finger over the name “Stan” stitched in slanted script. For some reason, I hold it to my nose and sniff, breathing in a mix of smoke and gas. “I have no idea what this is.” I hand it back to her. The hairs rise across my arms.

Principal Swank takes off her glasses and sets them on the desk. “That was what started the fire. Someone lit it and put it inside your locker. And because the only other person that has access to your locker was absent today, well, I’m left to think you did this.” She drops the nametag on her desk and hands me a slip of pink paper. She holds up a hand, “This is a serious offense, Sarah. I’m suspending you until we can review the security footage and come up with a conclusive answer about who was responsible.  If we find that you were involved, well, things will get very serious very quickly. If not, then we will allow you to return to school. Of course, you’ll have to reschedule your missed exams with your teachers.” She sets a duplicate of the pink slip into a file with my name across it. “Consider this a fair first strike, Sarah. I never want to see you in here for disciplinary action again.”

I slink out and drive home, but change my route so I can pass by Matt’s house. He’d never do something like this to me. He loves, I mean loved, me. I slow to a crawl and notice his red Mustang parked in the driveway. I glance up at the window above the garage, Matt’s room. There’s the slightest flick of motion as his curtains fall back across the window. Horrified to think I might’ve been seen; I speed away down the street. No, he’d never do something like this to me. Never.


Back home, I am relieved to find Mom is still gone. I curl up on the couch and fall asleep. When I wake up, there’s a pool of drool beneath my head and Judge Judy is holding court from the television in the corner. Out the window, the sun sits low in the sky and paints Seattle in pinks and oranges. The house smells like fried onions and my stomach growls.

“Hey, Sarah,” Mom says from over the kitchen island. “Have a good nap?”

I yawn and stretch. “Mmmhmm.”

“Dinner will be ready soon.” She glances up from her cooking and looks at me, I mean really takes me in. “Sarah, you’re all wrung out!” She comes around the island and touches my forehead. “Not sick, are you?”

“Just tired is all,” I say. School must not have called her about my suspension, not yet at least, or else she’d be ripping into me about it right now instead of checking me for a fever.

“Well, supper’s in an hour. Why don’t you take a bath? Relax a little. Finals can turn anyone into a stress ball.”

She’s right. I run the bath water as hot as I can stand, add some of my little sister’s strawberry-scented bubble bath and soon my problems don’t feel so raw. As I soak, my jumbled thoughts morph into white noise, like a static-filled channel on the radio and I almost fall asleep.

There’s a light knock on the door, and I sit up. “Sarah, dinner’s in about fifteen minutes.”

“Thanks,” I step out onto the bathmat and wrap myself in a fluffy towel. As the tub drains, I brush and braid my hair. I look into the mirror to check my handiwork, but the glass is coated with steam. As I wipe off the mist, words take shape beneath my hand. An invisible someone is writing into the fog. “I can get Matty back for ya.”

I scream and the hairbrush thunks to the ground.

“Sarah!” Mom pounds on the door. “Did you fall? Sarah! Open this door!”

I turn the locked knob. “Mom, I think I’m going crazy. Please tell me you see this.” I gesture to the mirror, fully expecting the words to be invisible to her, more proof that I’m going mad.

She gapes at the words that drip, but are still legible. “What is this? I don’t understand. Who’d you see?” She wipes the words away with the palm of her hand.

“I don’t know, Mom. I’m scared.” Oh, crap. The truth slaps me in the face. I do know. I saw him, the burning man. I just didn’t recognize that he was the lonely old guy from Pinedale. He was standing by a dumpster. We locked eyes, his were the same as mine, sad. He grinned, this crooked thing, like he hadn’t smiled in a long long time and I waved. “I didn’t realize he was a ghost,” I shiver and wrap my towel around me tighter.

“What are you talking about?”

“I think all this has to do with our trip to Firwood,” I finally say. “The smoke alarms going off. My nightmares. That thing at school today.” Cold air swirls around my legs.

“Yeah, about that. I had an interesting chat with Principal Swank earlier. Sounds like you’ve got an enemy at school.” Even over the jittery bubbles in my belly from the ghost words, I am hit with a wave of sweet relief. Mom knows I’d never start a locker fire. She’s on my side. “So what’s this got to do with bad dreams?”

I tell her everything. I know how it must sound, but I have to off-load this on someone. Matt’s not mine anymore, not my counselor or my friend. Mom has to be that for me now.

“So this has been happening since our trip to Firwood? You saw the old man there? The one from your dreams?” Her eyes are huge and her forehead wrinkles with worry. “Okay, well, sounds like some dark energy followed you home. I’ll sage the house tomorrow. I was going to anyways with your Dad was out of town.” Mom’s always been hyper-aware of spiritual energy and uses this ancient Native American tradition of burning dried sage to rid our house of dark energy and invite good spirits to stay and protect us. I’ve never taken much stock in the ritual, but I have to admit, it’s always made me feel safe. “Sleep in my room tonight though, okay?”

“Yeah, thanks.” She side-hugs me which feels awkward in a bath towel.

“Alright then, I’m going to set the table. We’ll have supper and Annie can entertain us with her seventh grade gossip, right?”



Sure enough, the dinner conversation centers around Annie. Her grade is full of drama, so she shares a large helping of gossip with the meal. It’s a fabulous distraction and I scoop second helpings onto my plate, feeling more like myself than I have in days.

After dinner, I squish onto the couch with Annie and Mom to watch our favorite show. My phone vibrates in my sweatshirt pocket with a text from Matt. “I miss you.” I have to read it twice to believe what I’m seeing. Instantly, I want to text back that I miss him, too. But then I wonder if one of his friends has hacked his phone to have some fun at my expense. My heart squeezes.

A second text pops up, “Went for a drive to sort stuff out and the GPS in my car quit. Maps app isn’t working either. I’m lost. (sad face emoji).” Nope. His phone wasn’t hacked. Matt always drives around to clear his head.

Ugh. He’s adorable. Why did we even break up? I can’t remember. It must’ve been my fault. It bugs me that I can’t remember.

I text him back, “I miss you, too,” and linger over the heart emoji, but press ‘send’ without adding it. Then I type, “Where are you?” Immediately, I feel stupid. He told me he’s lost. Duh.

I stare at the gray dots on my phone screen. Then his response appears, “Past the airport. Gas station guy is giving me directions. Get this, I’m in Firwood!”

The hairs on the back of my neck rise. “Firwood?” I can’t coordinate my brain and fingers. “I hate it there.”

“I know. You came back from there looking for a fight, remember? And you got one.” Yeah, I remember. And in a rage that makes no sense now, I broke up with Matt.

It started out well enough. I tagged along with Mom to her mystery writers’ meeting. The guest speaker was an expert on viruses, something I’d been learning about in biology class. We arrived way before the meeting and decided to park and walk down Main Street. Mom wanted to shop and I planned to take photographs.

But, from the moment I stepped out of the car, Firwood got under my skin. It was more than the rain and gray skies. That town reeked of sadness. It was more than the brick buildings coated in bad art that hurt my heart. Boarded up storefronts next to businesses that were obviously struggling to stay open. Weedy sidewalks. And that old man by the dumpster that made my heart break. There was a make-shift memorial near him, dead flowers tied to a tree stump with faded ribbons. I scroll through the photos on my phone until I find the shot I took and zoom in. Beneath the flowers is a homemade poster. Faded letters I have a hard time reading, “Stan. R.I.P.” Stan? Like the nametag that started the fire today at school? I chew my lip.

“Yeah, I know. Funny I ended up here, huh?” Matt texts me a picture of a wall mural, the same one in my picture. I see the memorial and standing in front of it is an old man.

I suck in my breath. A jolt of fear zips up my spine. Grease-stained overalls, white hair. I tremble so hard; I drop my phone in my lap. There’s no mistaking him. It’s the man from my nightmares. And then I remember the words written into the steam, “I can get Matty for ya, Sarah.”

Next to me, Mom turns. “Sarah, you’re trembling. You cold?” She shifts the gray fleece blanket off her lap onto mine.

“Thanks.” I lean on her shoulder. “Matt texted me,” I whisper.

“Oh, really?” I can’t see her face, but I know she’s smiling. It warms me up inside. Mom has always liked Matt. We’ve dated since eighth grade, so was always considered the fifth member of the family.

“Mom. Don’t read too much into it.” He was driving and got lost is all. But it’s weird because he ended up in Firwood.” I try to sound casual, but inside I’m scared. What kind of trouble is he in?

“Whoa. That’s a strange coincidence.  Firwood’s trending tonight.” She nudges me. “Boy, you really did hate that place, didn’t you?”

“Yeah.” I shiver.

“Well, tell Matt to get out of there,” Mom says. She grabs my hand and tucks it into hers. “And when he makes it back, have him stop by the house. I just made those cookies he likes so much, oatmeal chocolate chip. If he’s anything like you, he’ll need chocolate after his visit to Firwood. Isn’t that what cures you after seeing the dementors in Harry Potter? Chocolate?” She giggles at her own joke.

I force myself to smile so Mom quits looking at me funny, all worried. My uncoordinated fingers type, “Come over. Mom made you cookies.”

In the kitchen, I fill a paper bag with cookies and set them by the front door. I open up the text conversation again and look at the photo Matt sent. I zoom in, but there’s no old guy, no burning man. Am I making all this up in my head?

I return to the living room and scooch between Mom and Annie again. Worried about Matt, I find it impossible to keep track of the show. I won’t be able to relax until I know Matt is safe and sound. I tuck fidgety hands beneath my legs and cross my fingers. Maybe something good will come of all this. Maybe tonight will be a fresh start for Matt and me. The truth is, I love him. I want us back. I lean into Mom’s shoulder and make a wish.

A news alert interrupts our show. The newscaster reads a story about a major car accident. Long backups. Five people injured, one in critical condition. He says it occurred in Firwood. Mom sucks in her breath “Honey, text Matt! Make sure he’s okay.”

How many times has my mother reminded me never to text and drive, but I am scared for Matt, so I send him a message, “Bad accident in Firwood. Are you okay?” I check my phone. Nothing. “I’m sure he’s fine,” I say.

I stare at my phone, willing him to respond. One word. An emoji. Anything. It feels like forever. Finally, gray dots throb on my screen, then a message from Matt, “I’m out front.”

“He’s fine,” I say. “He’s here.” Not hurt in that awful accident. Away from that sad town.

“Oh, thank God!” Mom answers.

As he scarfs down cookies, we talk. We’re sappy and sweet and stupid. And by the time he has to leave, we’re back together. Outside by his car, he leans in to kiss me. I close my eyes, but then open them again when I’m not kissed. “Sarah, you smell like a campfire.”

I pull a lock of hair to my nose and sniff. Definitely smoke.

“I kinda like it. Reminds me of camping. And s’mores.”

I wave goodbye as he slowly drives away beneath the amber streetlights. I catch a glimpse of myself in the reflection off his back window. It’s not me staring back. It’s him, the burning man. He’s sitting next to Matt and smiling at me. I fall to my knees and clutch my face in my hands. I watch Matt drive away through blurry hot tears. What is happening to me?


The shack smolders. Smoke blurs the edges of the wood structure, but there aren’t flames. Not yet. Finally, I’m in time to rescue the old man! I run across the wide yard, my legs move in slow motion, like I’m pushing through sand. I see the old man and grit my teeth, willing my legs to step towards him. “I’m coming! Stay there!” I scream, my throat tightens. I feel the air in my lungs, as black toxic smoke squeezes out the last of the pure oxygen. The man takes a step towards his shack. “Don’t go any closer, please! I’m coming!” I beg. He laughs as flames lap at the bottom of the wood siding, lick the walls and climb up to the roof. I reach out and watch smoke escape from the gaps in his jumpsuit, his sleeves and pant legs. Smoke pulses out of the neck of his overalls. The skin on his neck bubbles and blisters. It turns gray and crumbles as he turns to me. And I want to look away, but I can’t. I’m stuck there, mouth wide open, the heat of the fire sears my skin. I stare at him, the burning man. He turns gray like a statue, veins of red crackle and break through his flesh until he crumbles into a heap of ash. I hold my breath to keep from inhaling the ash that fills the air, ash made of him. I cough and cough. I give in to the cries of my body and inhale deeply, the soot and ash and oxygen soften the ache in my lungs. Black. Waxy like the smell of a candle that’s been blown out. I cough and the taste of blood washes over my tongue. I cough again, so hard I feel my ribs crack.


I startle awake. My mother stands above me, speaking in a jumble of words that I can hardly keep up with. “Sorry, honey. I had the worst dream.” She speaks fast and loud. “It was awful. There was a man. He was on fire. He burned to death right in front of you and then…” she wipes her nose with her free hand, “…you followed him into the fire. I don’t know why you’d do that. You’d never do that, would you, Sarah? Would you?” She sobs and I see the bundle of sage in her hand, curls of smoke twirl above my head and settle down onto me. She sweeps the sage back and forth, back and forth and I breathe in, earthy pure smoke. The burning man fades with every sage-filled breath I take. He’s far away now, like something I remember from a movie, and I am safe. “I couldn’t go back to bed until I knew you were safe.”

“Mom, I’ve had the same nightmare since our trip to Firwood,” I admit. “The man’s house burns and I try to save him but I’m always too late. I always end up watching him…”

“I know,” she nods. “I know.”

She cries as she continues to wave the smoking sage over me. The end of the bundle glows orange. I breathe in deep, letting the cleansing smoke push out the last of the old man’s tortured soul. Out out out of me and away. When she leaves, Romeo pads into my room and jumps onto my bed, snuggling into the side of me. “Hey, old friend,” I say. He pushes his head against the palm of my hand and I fall asleep to the rhythm of his purrs.


The next morning, I see a note Mom left for me on my desk:

“He’s real. I did some research. I think his spirit followed you home. The sage got rid of him, though.”

Next, I read the newspaper articles Mom attached with a paperclip.

The first is from the local paper and says:

The man who was critically burned in a Firwood fire has died, according to the King County Medical Examiner’s Office. Stan Anderson suffered burns on 90 percent of his body from the Sunday morning blaze. He died soon after medics rushed him to Harborview Medical Center.  Medical investigators ruled his death a homicide. Three people have been incarcerated for the crime. An investigation is ongoing.

The second read:

In Firwood, a third sighting of the alleged “Burning Man” ghost has been attributed to deceased, Stan Anderson. Set on fire by three teenagers in 2007, locals blame a rash of car accidents on the 300 block to sightings of his spirit. A shock to drivers, a burning man appears in the busy intersection. The urban legend has drawn paranormal investigators from across the nation to Firwood.  

The third article is from a website called, “Ghost Sightings, Washington’s Most Famous Ghosts,” reads:

Stan Anderson, a homeless man burned to death in Firwood after teens doused him in gasoline and set him on fire. Seen on foggy evenings, his shocking vestige has caused countless accidents at a busy intersection. Witnesses report the ghost man is surrounded by gray flames and when motorists slow for him, he rushes at their vehicles causing them to lose control and crash. In the decade since Anderson’s death, local teens have performed rituals in hopes of making his ghost appear.


As my mom slows the car at the bottom of the highway exit, I double-check the address I found online. According to the police report, this is the place. “There!” I point to the brick building that matches the black and white photo in the newspaper article. “This is where Mr. Anderson was killed.”

She rolls to a stop at the end of an alley. The brick building runs the length of the block. I take a deep breath and get out of the car, thankful to see my mom do the same. I walk into the alley and fear squeezes my guts. My hands tremble and warmth rushes at my face and hands, everywhere my coat and jeans don’t cover feels hot as though I’m standing in front of a blazing fire. This is the spot. I pull up the hood on my sweatshirt and approach a dirty rusting dumpster. I wipe tears from my cheeks.

“This is it. This is where he died.” Anger and hate pulse through my blood like oxygen.

“You doing okay, honey?” Mom approaches and wraps an arm around my waist. She pets a hand over the back of my head. “It’s awful what they did to him. He didn’t deserve this.”

“No…” I wipe my face with my sleeve, “…he didn’t. I’m so sorry for what they did to you. It was awful.” The words don’t have enough power behind them, not enough punch.

I made a drawing to honor him. The words beneath say, “Your life mattered to me. I will always remember you.” At first, I sketched the words in pencil, but it seemed too simple, too dull. Then I added black ink and layers of watercolors. The splotches in the blues and greens and yellows? Those were made when tears rolled off my face and fell onto the art. “I brought these, too.” I lay a bundle of sunflowers near the brick wall. I take a shuddery gulp of air. “I wish I’d been there to save you. I hope you can find peace somehow. I think maybe you should let this place go. You don’t have to forgive those kids, but maybe move on to something better, okay?” Mom hugs my side and we stand there in silence.

A coolness blows at my legs, up my torso and blasts into my face hard enough to blow my hood backwards. For the first time in days, I don’t smell wood smoke when I inhale. Only flowers. And rain. “Goodbye,” I whisper. “Goodbye, Mr. Anderson.”


We return home and Matty is parked at the curb waiting for me.

“You okay?” he asks as I lead him to the bench on the front porch.

“Yeah. I’m good.” I smile. I can’t help but feel like we brought the burning man, no, Mr. Anderson, peace today. I reach for Matty’s hand and take it into mine. He smiles and looks away like he’s shy about it. I kiss his cheek. The stubble growing there tickles my lips and I giggle.

He looks sideways, “What?”

“Are you growing a beard?”

“Maybe, I’m not sure.” He bends over and coughs. I put a hand to his back and he coughs deeper and then stands up. “I should probably go.”

“Are you sick, Matty?”

“Naw.” He stares down at me and something about his eyes is different, makes him look older somehow. It must be the light. “I don’t know. Maybe it is a cold. I better go.”

“Okay.” He walks down the stairs to his car.

“Hey! You forgetting something?” I ask. I chase him to his car and hug him from behind. I squeeze him around the middle and expect him to turn around and kiss me, but he freezes. I smell it then, the wood smoke that seems to radiate off of his shirt. “Now who smells like a campfire?” I try to kid, but inside my mind is racing. Didn’t the burning man say he could bring Matty back? Is that what he said to me in the dream? And then Matty went to that cursed little town. He drove right past where the burning man was killed. No. I shiver.

“I gotta go, Sarah. See you tomorrow, right?”

“Yeah. See you.” I rub my arms to feel warm again and force myself not to watch him drive away. I’m not sure who I’ll see behind the wheel. I’m not sure of anything.

Angels Are Everywhere

Angels Are Everywhere

Feel-good news doesn’t warrant much space in social media these days. Maybe that’s why I’ve taken a step back (okay maybe fifteen steps back) as of late. But, no more. It has always been my goal to use my blog to add a voice of positivity to the noise, and with that in mind, I’d like to introduce you to a few angels.

045camp-erin-small3Not feather-winged, no. These angels drink coffee. They wear jeans. They have tissues in their purses and pockets. They are amazing listeners. They give the best hugs. And they are always looking for ways to deliver kinder care to families facing the last ninety days of a child’s life. Because that’s what hospice means, ninety days or less to live.

Next Tuesday, Providence Hospice of Seattle will hold their annual fundraising luncheon. The money we raise pays for 100% of our pediatric programs, including one you may have heard of, Camp Erin, a grief camp for kids.

We fill a ballroom in the Washington State Convention Center with community members. And in my eyes, every single person in that room is an angel. It’s not an easy choice to spend an hour learning about a reality that most people would rather ignore, sometimes children die. Yes, every years there are tears. But those are only outweighed by hope. Hope that families and friends are not alone in their struggles and loss.

Kids at Camp Erin

On a visit to Camp Erin, I heard from a long-time counselor. She told us a story I will never forget. A few years prior, her family had suffered a loss. Her son lost a beloved uncle and chose to attend Camp Erin. As a counselor, she’d seen the transformation these three days had on hundreds of kids. She knew the power of Camp Erin.  Year after year, she watched kids walk through grief, share their pain with other kids, create art, talk, cry and then leave Sunday evening free of the weight of their loss strapped to their hearts. But that year when she saw her son experience the same thing, she was blown away. A few months after her son attended camp, they were at the dinner table, her son, herself and her husband who had lost the brother. During the meal, her husband grew silent, blinked back tears and he rose to his feet. Her son noticed and when his father stood up to leave the room to be alone, her son told him no. He said it was the perfect time to share a moment together, to talk about his uncle and feel the loss together. The long-time counselor was doubly awed. Her son wasn’t just healed himself, he was coaching them through grief, passing on this gift to them.

I have so many more stories and in all of them people help other people. All of them, and the stories yet to be written are filled with earth-bound angels. Those angels are all around us, spending their time to be a comfort for others. So no matter what the mainstream media says, people are good. People are doing good. Right. Now.

And now, if you have the time, this TEDx talk about vulnerability may change your life!



b7688e729584392bbde26700e3536bb1-1“It’s about the journey, not the destination.”

Sorry, no. Not for me. The in-between stuff sucks.

Everything about my life right now is in-between. At home, my daughter, a senior in high school, has one foot out the door. Bound for UC Irvine, I hardly see her anymore. Between school, nuclear fusor club, social life and errands, she’s  gone 85% of any given day. Not launched but not on her own yet, either, she’s inches from her high school finish line. Yes, I’m excited for her and anxious and proud and sad and happy. All. At. Once. But, I know what comes next. In three months she’ll have a new address she calls home. Not yet, though.

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On the work front, my publisher, Booktrope, called it quits. Generous and kind, they are returning all rights back to their authors on May 31st, but I’m not sure what to do next. Midway through the writing of my third book in the Stone Witch series, have I mentioned that I’m not sure what to do next? Should I self-publish the series? Or find an agent willing to pitch my series to a legacy? Or pray for heavenly intervention in the form of a perfect publishing contract? Hmm.

I’m in-between.

If you’ve followed my blog or read my books then you know I’m a spiritual person. I’ve been receiving signs  everywhere. It’s clear that right now what I’m supposed to do is…wait. Wait?  ‘Wait’ is my least-favorite verb, tied with ‘hate,’ of course. Wait. Pause. Hold. Ugh.

I was five when I became uncomfortable with in-between times.

A photo Dad took of me

The summer before kindergarten, my parents called it quits. We’d lived in California where Dad taught at UCLA. Though dusty and yellow, Mom had a teaching credential from Washington state. She packed that old paper, my brother and me into a car and moved us north. She had connections there and found a teaching position easily. In fact, she and I started kindergarten the same day.

Summer vacation came that year and while my friends slept in, Mom packed us into the car again and headed south. We’d meet Dad somewhere in Oregon, a city that changed depending on which parent won the fight on the phone the week before. As we drove, I tried to ignore the stone in my gut . To prepare for the inevitable goodbye, I imagined saying the words to Mom in my head, over and over. If I imagined it vividly enough, I hoped I wouldn’t need to cry in real life.  Because I couldn’t cry. That might hurt Dad’s feelings. Or upset my other mom. Or make Mom sad and ruin her summer.

My brother, Garth, and I in sunny California

Three months after that, Dad drove us north. Again, I’d rehearse the goodbye so I wouldn’t blubber when I hugged Dad and new Mom in Oregon.  It never worked. Every year I bawled. Every year I got into the car of the one parent with the snot and tears from missing the other parent drying on my cheeks.


I’ve never savored the journey. For me, the journey hurts. it’s when  I hide hurts and pretend to be okay. Well, I”m older now. I know there’s no magic fast-forward button, and if there was, I’d be wise enough not to use it. I don’t want to miss a moment with my daughter before she flies from our nest. I don’t want to make a rash choice about the future of my books. I’m just going to wait.


An Open Letter to the Kids at Pasco School District

An Open Letter to the Kids at Pasco School District

Pasco LogoDear Kids of Pasco School District,

Umm, well. I was technically supposed to teach classes that inspired you to become an author, or illustrator, or whatever your heart dreams up, and then the coolest thing happened. You inspired me.

After learning the secrets of book design, some of the fourth graders at Mark Twain returned to class asking teachers for more time to write and draw ideas. In fact, one student who hadn’t done much writing on his own without a little prodding, well he wrote a story that morning.

My BooksAt James McGee, after listening to my spiel on writing a book, one of you asked a question I will not soon forget. “I want to become an author and someone said it’s a really hard thing to do. What do you think?” Please don’t forget what we talked about, okay?  All jobs are hard, so you might as well pick one that you like. And the most important thing? Never EVER let someone take your dream away from you.

The kids at Stevens Middle School, you are awesome. Your enthusiasm is contagious. When I reached your school, it was lunchtime. The day was unseasonably warm and before I began my talk, all I could think about was an iced coffee. But, even before I’d gotten through my introduction, I was grinning, the coffee long forgotten. I was there with you. I only wish I’d taken a picture of your faces when I told you I’d been a Stevens Tiger, too. You were great listeners and asked fantastic questions. Tigers, you are full of energy, passion and drive. I know you’ll slay your goals. Just don’t forget to ask for help along the way.

Amy Sonnichsen, fellow YA author with me at Mid-Columbia LIbraries

Pasco kids, you made my whole month. As I continue to write my third book,  I’ll be thinking of you. When the words won’t come or the edits seem too daunting, I’ll remember your energy and excitement and push forward. Thanks for being a part of my week.

With gratitude from your new friend,

Jennifer Hotes

p.s. A special thank you to Amy Kohn at Pasco School District for coordinating this day of visits. You’re wonderful.

Assume – Makes an @$$ Outta U & Me – or maybe just me

Assume – Makes an @$$ Outta U & Me – or maybe just me

I make way too many assumptions and they’re usually wrong. Here are just a few.

Assumption #1: That aggressive driver? Oh, yeah. My bad. That pushy tailgater riding my bumper? I’m quick to assume that I must’ve made them mad with my driving. Maybe I’m too slow or use my signal too liberally. But guess what? It seems that’s just the way these folks drive. I’ve watched them zoom past me and tailgate the next car, then the next. So the ugly truth is, it’s nothing personal.

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A bumper sticker I designed after too many harried commuteshey pass me and…. the truth is…they drive like that all the time. Yep. Inevitably they zoom past just to hug the next car’s bumper. It’s nothing personal.

Assumption #2: Salad is the healthiest menu option. Truth – not always. Add lots of cheese and dressing and croutons and deep-fried chicken and you’re eating more carbs and fat on that salad than what’re in your average cheeseburger. Read the calorie count before you order. Otherwise you’ll unknowingly eat your way back into those fat jeans.  (Do any of you remember the Seinfeld episode where the friends got hooked on non-fat froyo and they all gained weight?)

yoga pantsAssumption #3: Now that I’m middle-aged, I need to dress a certain way. Hmm. Truth – Not according to this hilarious article via the Huffington Post. Well, I guess since my expiration date is looming, I can wear whatever the bleep I want. Carpe yoga pants!

Assumption #4: I can do everything myself. Ha. Hee hee hee. What a load of bologna. Asking for help is my Achilles heel (I almost typed Achilles hell – Freudian), but I need to ask. Everything I do is better when I invite others into the process. Everything. Whether it’s planning a fundraiser, doing an art project, or writing a novel, other hands and eyes make my efforts shine. When I try to tackle stuff all by my lonesome, I end up stressed, frayed at the ends and bitter like unsweetened chocolate.

A photograph, taken and colorized by my father, Gary Riley in the early 70s
A photograph, taken and colorized by my father, Gary Riley in the early 70s

Assumption #5: I’ll be around for my next birthday. It’s something I try to control with exercise and diet, but the truth is, there is a large amount of variability in life. Any given day could be my last. That thought doesn’t depress me, in fact it helps me to live mindfully. I say my peace in real time. I let go of hurts. I hug my kids (often against their will) and I smile at my husband, letting him know that as hectic as the pace of our life is, we’re in this together. And I wouldn’t want it any other way.

So, this week, I’m going to try to assume less. I’m going to give the world the benefit of the doubt and try to make that my new habit. <3

Top Ten Reasons I’m (still) Grateful I’m an American

Top Ten Reasons I’m (still) Grateful I’m an American

Back CameraSorry I’ve been silent over the last few months. If you’re a regular reader, then you know that this blog is a place where I laugh at myself, ponder life in serious and not-so-serious ways, and aim to show a different side of issues. I always ALWAYS add a dose of humor and Pollyanna-positivity to my blogs.

Lately though, my blog drafts start out lighthearted and quickly devolve into whines, rants and whimpers. I can’t hit the ‘publish’ button and add to the cacophony of negative voices shouting across the United States. Lately, my country’s become a place where hate and derision permeate every channel of the mainstream media. The us versus them viewpoint has become the norm. As much as I’ve tried to duck my head in the sand lately, that culture of suspicion and hate has leaked into my own writer’s spirit so I’ve kept silent.

But, not anymore.

Today, I choose to add my voice to the conversation. Sometimes I’ll roar like a lion and other times I’ll whisper. But, my intention is to reclaim this blog as a place to highlight the common experience. I’m still convinced we have more in common than we don’t, that good people are the norm, that this country of ours is a special and unique place filled with authentic, giving, loving and hard-working people just trying to do their best.

Top Ten Reasons I’m (still) Grateful I’m an American

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A sketch of daughter, Bryn, pursuing her happiness.

10)  Every citizen’s right to pursue happiness is protected by the law. It’s in our Declaration of Independence. What other country in the world legally protects the pursuit of happiness? Yeah, I didn’t think so.

9) I can drive a car or a bus or whatever. There are still places on this planet where I cannot drive, not because of any prior record or lack of skills, simply because I have breasts and a baby box. Yeah, it’s ridiculous. To explore a list of the most ridiculous restrictions on womens’ rights around the world, click here.

8) We are a thriving democracy. Every voice counts. We can volunteer to canvas and phone bank for issues that are important to us. We can get out and campaign for people we believe in. And best of all? Every election, we have the privilege to cast our vote.

7) We have free public education for children. Did you know that 60 million primary school children aren’t in school? That’s according to the United Nations. Many kids have to stay home to take care of siblings, collect water, and do other work to support struggling families. Learn more here.

6) We give time and money to charities. In fact, after world-leader, Myanmar, we are the second-most giving country in the world. 68% of us give money and 44% of us give volunteer hours. We’re doing a lot of good. If you want to see the Mashable story, click here.

Jenn Tweet5) We are rich in diversity. According to 2009 census information, in 40-50 years we will be a majority-minority country. That’s fantastic. Some articles even prove how diversity makes us smarter. Here’s a snippet of an article from Scientific AmericanDiversity enhances creativity. It encourages the search for novel information and perspectives, leading to better decision making and problem solving. Diversity can improve the bottom line of companies and lead to unfettered discoveries and breakthrough innovations.

Well, it’s just another reason I’m excited for our country’s future. Here’s a link to the article.

4) Our 400+ national parks. Did you know that our National Park Service is about to blow out a hundred birthday candles? We have the greatest land trust in the world and it is a gift to every generation yet to come. Our parks preserve the best of our country, and include countless places that hold cultural significance. If you wish to be one of this year’s 275 million visitors, click here to find a national park near you.

3) We agree to disagree. It’s unique to live in a country where we can have different points of view, have respectful debates and walk away better for having the conversation. Did you read that snippet above about diversity? Every word of it applies to intellectual diversity as well. In the United States, our speech is protected by the Constitution. And I know first hand from living with two opinionated teens, robust debates always end up enriching my view on issues.

2) We can love who we want. It’s protected by the law. I just ask that you love someone that treats you with kindness and respect. Other than that, be happy.

flag series copy copy1) We are in control of our own future. Called the “American Dream,” it is the most well-known tenet of our society. A person that comes from nothing can work hard and become a screaming success. Doubt it still exists? Here’s an article about 10 well-known celebs that came from poverty and now sip champagne.

According to by James Truslow Adams, “life should be better and richer and fuller for everyone, with opportunity for each according to ability or achievement” regardless of social class or circumstances of birth.[

In the United States, you can scratch your way to the top, heck you may even land a book deal and reality show along the way. This isn’t the case in other countries, where opportunities aren’t allowed to people based on many things including gender, race, politics, and money, to name a few.

UNITED States – One Fat Pet Tweet at a Time

UNITED States – One Fat Pet Tweet at a Time

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#fatpet on Twitter

The other day #fatpet was trending on Twitter. So was #blackfamilythanksgiving .

Fresh off the heels of terrorist attacks in Paris and Tunisia and Lebanon and Israel and Baghdad, I was more than grateful for the lightness these threads provided. Yes, scrolling through countless tweets was a sweet diversion, but it quickly became more than that as I giggled over post after post, most of which I could relate to from my own life. I had a light bulb moment. Yes, we are spread out across this nation, we have different struggles, dreams and fears, but these Twitter threads illustrated how much we still have in common.

And it hit me. I knew in that moment what I value most about the United States of America –  it’s the united part. What unites us? Well, that’s a beautiful complication. Our innovative spirit? Freedom of speech? Our belief in the American dream? Freedom of religion? Our rich diversity?  Our unwillingness to quit? Yes, those are common strings that bind us, but they only begin to scratch the surface.

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Crow’s Wing Detail by Jennifer Hotes

Recently, KUOW did a story about the crows of Seattle. Here’s the link in case you’d like to read it. Every evening at sunset,  tens of thousands of crows take to the skies and fly north. Observing this, the reporter became obsessed with finding out where they gathered and why. After a harried drive through the city, she followed the crows to a cemetery in a northern suburb. The crows clustered across the grounds of Calvary Cemetery. The strongest birds perched in the treetops overhead, standing guard. The rest of the crows sat on the grass, arranging themselves so that the younger, smaller birds were surrounded, protected by the others. As the sun sunk into the Olympic mountains, all of the crows stood facing the same direction as a community. Their instincts led them to this place, where they stood a better chance of surviving the night against predator attacks. United.

Jenn TweetAs I read this story, the hair stood up on my arms. These crows are smart. They know there is safety in community. By instinct, they know to protect the frail, the young and the old. At night they stand together. Safe from the coyotes and raccoons and raptors that probably detest this unity because it makes killing all the tougher.

There are global predators that wish to do harm to America, obliterate our way of life. Can we stand united against them? Or will we continue to allow our mainstream media and political leaders to fracture us? Pit you against me? Us against them? Him against her? Or should we take a lesson from the crows and unite. Can we agree to protect our most vulnerable? Can we view our differences as a blessing? Can we seek to find our commonalities and rejoice in them?

So, if your social media threads of late have left you feeling angry, frustrated, scared, and maybe even invisible, I suggest you unplug for a couple days. Connect with people in real life. Look for the good your neighbors are doing right now, then roll up your sleeves and join them. Live your truth and value the person next to you who has their own take on the world. Relish the differences and find the common threads. Gather at sunset and face the same way. United.


Go Visit a Cemetery!

Go Visit a Cemetery!

The Deathbed grave referenced in my first book. It resides in Bayview Cemetery, Bellingham, Washington.

I’ve been obsessed with cemeteries since I was a child. It all began when my mom, needing to attend night classes for her Master’s program, hired an unusual babysitter. The lady was nice enough, but she happened to be the daughter of a cemetery caretaker. Yes. Our sitter lived in a graveyard.

On that cold autumn afternoon, darkness descended before my brother and I had so much as swallowed down a decent after school snack. Cozy in the caretaker’s cabin, we started in on our homework when the babysitter encouraged (okay, maybe pushed) us out the front door. “Go get some fresh air before supper.”

I clung to my big brother’s arm, looking at the gray tombstones through my fingers. “What’re we supposed to do out here?” I asked.

“Well, how about hide-and-seek?” she offered. “My brother and I spent hours playing that out here when we were kids.”

That was a long night. And, toward bedtime, I was grateful to see the beam of mom’s headlights flash through the front window. I had nightmares after that. Well, in truth, I’ve always had nightmares. But after that experience, graveyards burrowed under my skin. My new two-headed fascination and phobia began.

FullSizeRenderFast-forward to 2015. Traveling through London with my family, I stumbled across a book, HAUNTED LONDON. During an hour of down-time in the hotel, I read it cover to cover. Inside the author mentioned a place called, “Crossbones Cemetery.” A quick Google search and I found out it was a stone’s throw away from our hotel. I was determined to see it myself. Click here to book a haunted London walking tour!

IMG_6289The Crossbones Cemetery holds somewhere around 14,000 women and their children. There are no gravemarkers and prayers were never uttered over any of the bones within the property grounds. These were London’s castaways. Women of the night or Churchill’s geese for the orange hoods and white cloaks they were required to wear, these women were seen as too steeped in sin to warrant niceties like church rites and grave markers. That was 200 years ago.

Modern Londoners are atoning for the mistakes of their forefathers. On numerous occasions, developers have attempted to morph the property into a parking lot or other profit-churning venture. It’s always been fought and defeated. And now, well, what’s happening leaves me speechless.

IMG_6299Londoners come together once a month at Crossbones Cemetery. After uncovering the names of the women and children, they write those names on pieces of ribbon and tie them onto the surrounding fence. Slowly, they are remembering the dead, honoring their lives and reclaiming those lost souls.

As I tied our flower offering to the fence, I stood in awe. There was an overwhelming sense of peace at Crossbones. And love. And forgiveness.

This week, not because it’s Halloween, but because history lives and breathes in these sacred spaces, walk a cemetery. Take a photo. Tidy the leaves off a grave. And maybe utter a name etched into a tombstone. Who knows what this simple act will do for you or the person buried beneath your feet?

Baby, Get Your Smile On!

Baby, Get Your Smile On!

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A quick sketch of one of my favorite smilers, my daughter Bryn.

I smile easily, without any hesitation. I have crinkles on either side of my mouth from forty-six years worth of grinning. I laugh too loud and giggle until tears spill from the corners of my eyes. Some say that smiling is a superpower. Funny though. On a recent trip to London I found myself trying to refrain from smiling as I took my daily run around Hyde Park each morning. In Seattle, runners smile at one another and say, “Hi!” as they pass. Not in London. Runners pass without so much as a nod. It was the first time I ever wondered if my easy smile was a weakness. I’ll never think that again after watching this TED talk. 🙂 My smiles are visual trick-or-treats for myself and others. Two thousand chocolate bars without all the calories to be exact. Find out what I’m talking about by checking this out.

Watch the video here and get your smile on!